things i wish i knew about college before i came

-leaving home for a new semester never gets easy.

-fun filler classes are great. but stop taking them after your first year. because now you have to wait another semester to graduate.

-you actually do want to save your money up now. and take AP classes.

-the next semester always comes too quick

-start being social sooner.

-soda addiction is real. cut yourself off now!

-the six girls you live with most likely all had sisters, and most definitely will all want to share your clothes. come up with your excuses and rules....now!

-no matter how much you hate school sometimes, you will always love it

blessed day

my small college town gets so cold it, the power can't even handle it. its the best thing in the world to wake up all groggy and confused and find four mass texts from your college that say classes have been postponed until 12:45, which is precisely when I am done for the day. thank you retched -12 degree weather for gracing us with your presence and giving me the entire day off. i truly appreciate it, and all of the 54 snowflakes i made for a ward party. what else is there to do when the power is out?

can we just talk about how stressed I am right now, because maybe that would help.

but really. never did i imagine that i would be so busy that i wouldn't have time for revenge. #priorities. also, never did i think that i would have so many good friends that i would have to balance my time between them all and it would distract me from homework. its a good thing, but i also hate it. its like i'm still that toddler that won't go to sleep in her room because i'm afraid that i'm missing out. yep mom, i guess i'll always be like that. and then there's this thing called work. don't get me wrong, making money is the biggest blessing i've ever had at school, but having to balance a professional work life on top of everything else is an ongoing adjustment that i'm still trying to make. speaking of adjustments, i guess i kind of date now.  i don't know how it happened, and it probably will stop soon (because it seems to be something that comes and goes in spurts), but that also has been added to my plate. and how i'll ever become good at letting down those boys that are so nice but just not my type, is a mystery to me. because sometimes i would rather be let down by the guys that i like than have to tell one more softie that i just want to be friends. actually, i take that back. but i guess that regardless of what i want to have happen, my life is just always going to stay this busy and probably only get busier. i promise that the complaining won't get worse. at least not publicly. oh an let me admit that today i skipped class to do homework.  shouldn't that not be how it goes? SLOW DOWN ON THE HOMEWORK TEACHERS!

oh, um, hey. long time no see.

so, yes, its true. i have neglected this blog, because hey-i'm at school and i'll be darned if i don't do my homework and have a productive social life. and to be honest, both of those things have kept me mighty busy. so my guilt for not having blogged coupled with my complete lack of motivation (i blame the red devil) has made me decide to catch you up on my life via snapchats that have been saved to my phone, and the promise of a real blog post tomorrow. enjoy.

its an intense thing to do in the dark at 1 in the morning

that was a rough day.

i send funny snapchats in the morning

we like friends

yep. i went the whole month without soda. boo ya!

bus·y - actively and attentively engaged in work or a pastime:
mul·ti·task - to perform two or more tasks simultaneously.

two things my vocabulary involves right now, and its only the second day of the semester. i hate that professors slam every single thing that you'll ever do the entire semester on you the very first day of class and then confuse you by making you think its all due the next time. i also hate that i'm already this slammed and its the second day. i've definitely been thrown back into the swing of things, and it looks like dark late nights in front of the computer for me. but if there's something that i'm going to teach myself this semester, its the principle of sticking through things and hard work.  because i think we can always learn to work a little harder, and thats what i'm going to try to do. 

post college limbo

man, nobody ever told me that leaving college could actually be sad at times. 

it may have to do with the fact that i have a little red devil occupying my time right now, 

but i find myself full of me-lan-ca-lee the past few days since i've been home.

while it mostly has to do with the disheartened feelings of leaving my best friends, 

its almost like a post mission limbo, where i don't really know what to do.

there's no school to occupy my time and mind, my lifestyle has changed, 

and i don't have anyone to watch TV with until 2 in the morning. 

i do love being home with my family, 

and the list of things i have going on this summer 

is enough to get me rolling out of bed any day.

but for now, i think i'll take these next few days off as my transition 

and remember that i really am grateful that i had a good enough year 

that it stinks to have left it. 

currently:

listening to jonsi

working on a photography portfolio

enjoying these last several days of the semester

Things I learned over the weekend

If you put a sign on your door that says "Let them eat cake" for your cake party, random people that nobody in your apartment knows will come in and take two pieces each,
and mess up your magnet sentences on the fridge before they bounce. But you'll also have 

a good time with all your friends that come over too.

There's also a major difference between preemie boys and post boys, 

like their ways of wooing certain girls. And its just funny. 

Especially when they're the same age as your brother.

The movie LOL is definitely one of those movies that has no actual plot or storyline, 

so watching it just because you don't really have an attachment to watching anything else

is pretty much the only way to watch it and not think Miley was the most horrible person on earth.

It also is a lot more fun when you watch it with all your favorite people, 

and by that, I mean my roommates. And when I talk about my roommates, 

they're that set of roommates that will be the ones I'll talk about and still talk,

and I like knowing that about us. 

i was lazy. hear me roar.

its true. this last week ranked low on the scale of productivity and to be quite frank and unpoetic, it sucked. you could tell that the whole doing nothing with my spare time and feeling like that fat gross monster in star wars was a drain because i managed to put off a digital photography project that has irked me with its terrible theme that i can nowhere near begin to understand. and while i have spent the last 4 hours doing everything i absolutely could to avoid and push off said project, once i buckled down i found something out. i found that, despite my tendencies to prefer sleep to class and catching up on the bachelor to my elliptical routine at the gym, i really miss being productive. and i really like being busy with the chores and routines of life. so here's to a week of being as productive as i can (and practicing much better ways to conclude my blog posts. because i use this one way to much)!

back to the swing

this is the face of a girl that does not want to go to school tomorrow. 

not one little bit. 

after having spent the entirety of last week and the weekend before that

playing mom to my little brothers while the parents were away gave me a nice long time to relax

(don't worry i did all of my work before i left).

and now that the oscars are over (which you can gladly bet i will talk about later),

and i have organized the closet, and washed my face, 

i guess i don't have any more excuses to put of doing one small homework assignment.

bummer. 

ok yeah

hummus and pita chips at one in the morning was a good idea. 

"hummus in my tummus....ya know, my tummy."

5/52

28. today my room is messy.

29. library studying.

30. slurpies in the afternoon.

32. editing stlying.

33. finally full of food again.

34. heater feet. 

things i'm thinking right now

this whole -10 degree weather has really changed me. i mean, today felt like a warm spring day and it was only 31. yikes. 

ya know i was never really a fan of the cute guy that turns into a bratty know-it-all. its like, no one's REALLY that confident. 

there's only so many times i can get on pinterest and look at the same pins without getting bored.

i really shouldn't have pizza for dinner at 10 o'clock at night, and even worse, i really shouldn't enjoy it as much as i did. really i'm just bummed that my roommates felt sick after cause i really enjoyed it.

having a pepsi at 10 o'clock however, was NOT a smart idea. although it was my last resort to get rid of the headache that plagued my head and clearly worked, it probably is not going to help me get to bed. 

dang i miss those little twin brothers of mine. especially when i only have a day or two left to spend with them, because thats when they want to spend time with me the most.

and on the second day....

elsa realized the potential amount of extra work load that came from 

a measly one credit class thats supposed to be relatively easy,

panicked at the prospect of it, 

decided to switch out of it, 

discovered that absolutely NOTHING was available,

and changed her mind and decision.

on the second day elsa also laughed out of pity at my dorky teacher

that is very much a radio DJ and very much exudes that personality from all aspects.

and especially on the second day, elsa realized 

that all these silly college things were exactly the things 

that she would one day remember and wish she had time

to enjoy them just a little bit more.

a few new things

this whole consistent blogging thing has been a bit off lately, 

and i immensely apologize for that. 

i realized that i completely neglected to relay some

 pretty big things that have happened around these parts lately.

like how i cut off the tip of my thumb.

yep, thats right, the biggest klutz moment of my life yet.

and while the bandages have shrunk in size,

they still choose to linger and the ironic jokes that come with it does too.

also, i started back up at school today with a brand new winter semester.

and so far, i am thoroughly enjoying it

(as noted in the picture above). 

so there's my small update.

hopefully it was worth the while.

Yep

ha thats funny

these are my 

'i have so much homework/crap to do, but i don't want to do any of it' faces.

and every time i decide to put it off just a little bit longer, 

i then remember how extremely exhausting and terrible it would be to wait until later.

and then i debate doing it right then, and remember how i have absolutely no motivation at all.

so i've been at battle with myself all day. 

just chugging away

and this my friends is what finishing a large design project right before thanksgiving break looks like.

this all consuming graphically designed photobook that will determine a large portion of my final grade

was exactly what i want to be stressing over right now. 

so naturally, i watched new moon first,
thought long and hard about how much i really wanted to just be done and go home
and then thought even longer and harder about how much i wanted this book to absolutely rock.
and that, my friends, is what i am doing now. 

well this was random

i don't have anything to say today. 

other than my roommate bakes on a daily basis and its making me fat, 

my teachers seem to think that i can stay up all hours of the day (and night)

and that i should have a job, and because i apparently since i do, 

i'm absolutely made of money and 

can spend exorbitant amounts on one project (try $65). 

my nose has a small trail of zits along the edge of it

and i'm slowly finding myself losing sanity due to a lack of sleep.

but.

the sun shines and makes me warm for a last week of fall weather, 

occasional praise makes me think that maybe i am getting things right in school, 

and the stirring promise of hope, when it is present, is enchanting.

soft kitty

that one weekend we had a kitten and named her stella.

and pretended like she would stay for forever, 

giving her lace shakespeare collars, and taking way too many pictures of her. 

thanks for the weekend stell, 

and making me feel like a love sick teenage girl that swoons over baby things.