bleck

ya know, for being a germophobe and how often i wipe down every touchable surface of this house with sanitizing wipes, that i would be the one to stay healthy. but no. i am the one who has contracted everyone else's terrible flus, colds, and sores on top of being sick already. its really been a great few days. here's to hoping the airborne finishes this up tomorrow, or at least before christmas.

lately.....

things i love lately......

crocheting

photo adventures with lucy

editing

o sleep

its so pretty and soothing

are you even surprised?

smallville. 

bedhead.

it just makes me laugh.

sleepy g

he is so dang cute when he falls asleep.

maybe its because he's finally quiet. 

just kidding. 

to all the artists and people that use creativity

rule number one:

stay true to your style.  because there's nothing quite like doing something a way only you have envisioned it, and once you show people a little of what your world is, they always seem to appreciate it (in one way or another).  no amount of pleasing certain people or capturing a single specific audience can make you as happy as you want. but pleasing yourself-now that always pays. its the bold and daring essence of you, that keeps them coming back for more.

you must remember, you're not like the rest of them darling.





something i am always reminding myself.

if you haven't seen the series finale of gossip girl yet, you probably don't want to read this...

because only gossip girl (or dan) could have said it better.....

"the upper east side was like something from fitzgerald or fackeray. teenagers acting like adults. adults acting like teenagers. guarding secrets, spreading gossip, all with the trappings of truly opulent wealth. and membership in this community was so elite, you couldn't even buy yourself in. it was a birth right."

and maybe thats why i loved it. and that mixed with my obsessive tend to latch onto any show, book, movie, or form of entertainment, meant that it was meant to be. and it was a fun ride. one, no doubt, that i'll probably relive time and again.  

because you know you love me. 

xoxo.

but lets be real. it was all because j showed it to me. so thanks j. now let's watch smallville next. 

my name is elsa

and i am german. 

and every december, we enjoy some good german christmas festivities. 

and maybe one day i'll finally have all the words to O Tannenbaum memorized. 

lately......

things i love lately.......holiday cheer

 christmas lights. 

an essential.

gingerbread houses with these two

holiday treats. 

snow and this delightful storm 

she & him christmas album

little apartment stockings

Yep

for your sunday

a video and message that i like very much

lights

the weeks are getting busier

and the time seems shorter.

but something i always love is sitting in my room 

with only the big bulbed christmas lights on

and using its subtle yellow haze glow on the walls

and shine through the glass like a large magnifying glass.

ps. i know my lately posts have been somewhat MIA. its not because a lack of things to love, but hopefully my time constraints will ease up in the next little bit and give me time to post them.

this is happening

i may or may not have just introduced jace to smallville.

and we may or may not be watching it right this instant.

and i tooooooootally forgot how much i loved it.

so it was totally smart to start watching a new tv series right before finals week, right?

haha, i thought so too. 

ha thats funny

these are my 

'i have so much homework/crap to do, but i don't want to do any of it' faces.

and every time i decide to put it off just a little bit longer, 

i then remember how extremely exhausting and terrible it would be to wait until later.

and then i debate doing it right then, and remember how i have absolutely no motivation at all.

so i've been at battle with myself all day. 

simply stated

december looks like....

i aspire....

to be like the most fabulous photographer, Richard Avedon.

he was pure genius and everything I love in a photographer. 

he captured raw emotion and personality flawlessly. 

i found this quote by him the other day about the lovely audrey, 

 '"I am, and forever will be, devastated by the gift of Audrey Hepburn before my camera. 

I cannot lift her to greater heights. She is already there. I can only record. I cannot interpret her. 

There is no going further than who she is. She has achieved in herself her ultimate portrait."

i guess even the most fabulous hit walls eventually. 

everyone dancing merrily

hey, merry december from these friends.

while we enjoyed decorating my mother's tree, 

it made me very excited for the impending holiday 

and all of its good feelings and events (including my birthday ;) )

hope ya know, we had a hard time

i normally don't share much concerning faith or messages of gospel power, 

but this is something that has relevance to me.

and no matter what you may think of faith or religion, 

this is something we all could hear. 

ps. i love this school and the things we learn at it. like this. 

i came back

my break was good.

and it was fun. 

and all of the other wonderful things it should have been.

i have come back thinking, 

i love pumpkin pie. 

and every year before this that i spent without having pumpkin pie was a stupid choice. 

i also love my family and small moments of hilarity 

between the busy and loud hustle that so normally fills the house. 

i love the lessons i'm learning both from my education and life, 

and i don't think i would trade what i'm learning and doing for the easier and simpler life i had before.

and i love movies. i genuinely love movies and that i have a friend who loves them as much as i do. 

just chugging away

and this my friends is what finishing a large design project right before thanksgiving break looks like.

this all consuming graphically designed photobook that will determine a large portion of my final grade

was exactly what i want to be stressing over right now. 

so naturally, i watched new moon first,
thought long and hard about how much i really wanted to just be done and go home
and then thought even longer and harder about how much i wanted this book to absolutely rock.
and that, my friends, is what i am doing now. 

yes, i look like my mother.

and i sound like her too now. 

because "is it too much to ask, just for you to rinse out your dishes first?"

is not something you pick up on your own. 

and shaking out your shirts before you fold them 

is not something you pick up at the laundromat either. 

so whether you may think it or not mother, 

i am very much your daughter 

and i have very much began to realize how much we are the same.

and i like it. 

simply stated

lately......

things i love lately....

toasty REI socks

SMASH. 

now that i've finished the first season, i've become depressed

with the number of days i have to wait until the next season.

rewatching videos.

lets just say, we're total goofs.

this lovely CD.

its always my favorite this time of year.

this picture

slurpees. 

finally a place in this small college town has a decent slurpee!

so naturally, 2 in 2 hours was a necessary action.

to update you. on life and other things it involves.

1. there is currently a poster that looks just like this hanging on the wall in my room.

and you better believe that its working. 

2. having spiderman come out on DVD was possibly the greatest thing to happen to today.

and to our whole movie collection. 

3. i may or may not want to eat an entire box of dark chocolate cookies from broulim's right now.

its one of those junk food weeks, where my body says, to heck with health, 

eat those darn cookies cause you like them.

4. i took pictures today. 

and like most times, i realized how much i truly do love it. 

ah, the bliss of it all.

5. i am going to bed by midnight tonight. 

and that's final. 

(its part of the goal poster). 

gallerized

Last week my picture was hung in the Spori Art Gallery at school. 

and all I can think is.....

what?

a rather large picture that i have taken

is hanging on a wall.

in a frame. 

in a gallery. 

thanks to those who said such nice things

and showed support. 

it made this girl feel awful special. 

november looks like

this

p.s. 
when your roommate makes you pie, 
it makes a for a happy tummy. 
thanks jace. 

thanks for all the instagrams

all i can say is that utah stole all my dang snow.

and i'm pretty bitter about it. 

that 12 inches you all got last night? 

well it was due for my small college town

and i was looking forward to it so so much. 

simply stated

minimalist

ya know, i still don't completely know what that means, but i think it means this. 

and i absolutely love this style of pictures lately. 

thats all. 

in some ways i've been freed. 

but in so many others, its trapped me. 

its a contradicting trap. 

lately.....

things i love lately......

lucy and ethel halloweens

 in-n-out after a long working day

this song

new photographers to stalk. 

this one is beautifully talented

this quote 

new sweaters for sweater weather. (thanks mom!)

well this was random

i don't have anything to say today. 

other than my roommate bakes on a daily basis and its making me fat, 

my teachers seem to think that i can stay up all hours of the day (and night)

and that i should have a job, and because i apparently since i do, 

i'm absolutely made of money and 

can spend exorbitant amounts on one project (try $65). 

my nose has a small trail of zits along the edge of it

and i'm slowly finding myself losing sanity due to a lack of sleep.

but.

the sun shines and makes me warm for a last week of fall weather, 

occasional praise makes me think that maybe i am getting things right in school, 

and the stirring promise of hope, when it is present, is enchanting.

the thoughts i have

the funny thing about faith is, that you have to remember to use it for it to work. and you have to have something to use it for, in order to use it. and you have to really trust. trust in yourself to make it through it. trust in something bigger than you could imagine. and trust in the grand scheme of things, remembering that there is quite a long road in your life, and whether its happening right now or not at all, doesn't mean it never will.

yummy yucky

this is what the beginning of a cold looks like. 

yum. airborne.

i'll be in my bed watching movies and eating cake if you need me. 

lately....

things i love lately......

lipstick covered hot chocolate cups.

it was the first snowfall of the season. 

you know that means B&N with hot chocolate :)

this picture.

audrey style. 

 my favorite rainboots

this movie.  

this song

wearing ruffle aprons while cleaning.

it makes me feel like a housewifey.