mess. mess. mess.

do you ever get so focused on just one thing that everything else becomes irrelevant?

i'm a distracted person in general,
so my room normally suffers from too little attention from me. 

but lately, i'm embarrassed to admit,

that i noticed i was letting girls camp overtake my life

from the messy clutter in other areas of my life that usually stay pristine.

like laundry....

and my wallet...

how does one stay on top of it all? 

i simply don't know. 

but i guess i will know once this is all over. 

a bun day.
and it was messy.
very messy. 

cause i can't not post.

i don't really want to blog today. 

yuck.

its a night that ends with

a grumpy attitude, a sour face, and a yearning for bed. 

so, i'm going to put on my socks and go to bed.

goodnight.

and here's to hoping tomorrow won't end the same. 

later....
having read this, twenty minutes after the fact,
i silently laugh at the irony and slight shock
of the easy ability we have to change our moods with just a simple decision.
and while my mood change was not completely my doing
(thanks to the simple words of a few)
i am impressed at the idea of how quickly it can all change,
for the worse, or in my case, the better.
so now i say,
goodnight world!
and yes, tomorrow night will end better, because i say it will. 

before i go to bed

quite often, 

i spend the last few moments of my day on computer. 

editing and designing.

and i do love it so. 

i am itching to keep learning

and i am yearning to progress. 

who would have ever thought that one day 

i would actually spend my summer doing 'homework'? 

and though i don't consider taking pictures and playing on InDesign as homework, 

i would never have guessed it would have been me. 

I'm an INFJ

some days i have a creative brain overload.
a whole spew, no, an enormous tidal wave of ideas spurt through every fold in brain
and start to rush out of the orifices of my head.
i become a 7 year old boy with raging ADD,
moving my focus from one creative project to the next inspiring idea
at light speed intervals while my mere mortal body tries to keep up.
i can't even begin to explain how it seems that i can simultaneously
think of a single idea in certain detail, while rushing over a new idea at the same exact time.
it boggles me to think that i am even capable of this creative thought high.
and then i laugh and remember the realities i have learned of myself of late
and think, 'that's merely you elsa'. and it is.

and i don't even want to begin to try and describe how i somehow still remember them days later.
cause i don't know how.
my brain is a masterpiece, a work of art, and it can only clearly be explained the making of something much higher and more divine.
i love to think that.

lately...

things i love lately...

striped boatneck shirts.

audrey style.

michaels coupons.

red raspberry and peach smoothies. 

somebody i used to know the g and l edition.

they love to sing it and its so adorable. 

drinking hot drinks for my sore sore throat in my teacup. 

yes, i made that! (i'm so proud) and yes, like i predicted, my voice is even more gone. 

girls camp activities.
seriously the best thing in my life right. 

beacause i've suddenly become one of those super busy people who only talk about how busy they are and don't have time to do much else

the three most prominent things of my day, in picture form:

of all the things i needed today, it was my voice. 

my literal voice. 

and it was gone. and still is. and perhaps will be even more gone tomorrow. 

want to do something fun? want to go to taco bell?

so me and noah went.

and saw our super cool neighbor in the drive through in front of us. 

i like knowing grandma's make 10 o'clock t-bell runs too. 

GC. 

girls camp. 

can i just say how much i love doing this?

i love that it takes up all of my free time and i wish it took up even more free time.