families

i'd like to think that the man i marry will wear a bow tie on our wedding day, just for me, because he knows how much i love them. and on occasion, he'd wear them again, and say that he did "only because you love them so much". but i would know its because he secretly likes them. and maybe we would fight over our children's names and what they really should be and spend hours looking through baby books of names. i also like to dream of having two daughters, that despite their quarrels, really do love having each other, because they should be so lucky to have a sister that i never had. but maybe occasionally, i would just hold my little boys and teach them how to be kind and gentle. but mostly, above all else, i think of how lovely it will be to still be in love with the family i will have one day, despite the messes, frustrations, harder moments. i learned yesterday about the exceptional gift it is to love someone so much that their well being trumps everything that you want for yourself. and to learn that it is one of the few ways that we can truly learn to love the way we are loved by a Heavenly Father, makes families and marriage seem that much more important.  because with that true love, it is so God-like, it makes family seem like more of a heavenly experience.